Second Thoughts

Dianna always did have fire. I know the Republican ideal has been trounced of late by members of both parties. It does deserve some of the trouncing. McCain is a very liberal Republican who is now leading the party into a fray that probably will not be won. It is difficult to be truly Conservative when the platform of the party has been shaken for so many years and so many reasons. I cannot believe in abortion; sometime when she is older, I will explain to her why. I cannot believe in wholesale governmental spending for programs to save people at the cost of their dignity, conscience, and pride. I cannot believe in pork barrel politics such as Murtha purports. I cannot believe in wholesale immigration without laws or rules. I cannot believe in attitudes to let people be anything they seem to want to be in a sexual vein. Even the vocal leaders of late have set aside what true Conservatism may be all about. It believes in the dignity of people who work hard, have solid beliefs, and usually have faith in a strong God. The party will be rattled to its bones this year and probably deserves it.
My daughter has been raised to do what is right, to follow her conscience, and to express herself intelligently. We did a good job. Her choices seem to be well thought out and supported. She is obviously her own person. Bravo.
This has been the culmination of a tough weekend for me. I definitely worked hard on my 112 class and made it perfect. The new program will not let me save any of my assignment list entries for my 111 class. I came up with an alternative which works for one day. I do not know whether to start my 080 class because I do not want to be more disappointed. I feel that I am having another bad start on a quarter that I sorely needed success. I feel like just going home; but I have office hours right now.
Well, I had best get back to work.

First Ideas

I can read. That very skill often fills my soul and yet often makes it feel empty. I read Dr. Dyer’s blog about community. I have established a little family-only three children and mom and dad. It has been the best thing in life that I have ever done. This is not to imply that I have ever done it alone. My little family gained one and lost two when Marc got married and then a year later left for Texas. In three months Dianna will be lost to the great and wonderful idea of graduate school in Texas. Her reuniting is my separation. I thought I was fine with this until MJ moving to an apartment came to the forefront. He is an innocent of life. By innocent I mean one who takes people for what is on the surface. He cannot tell when people are telling lies and being untrustworthy. Thus comes the idea of community from Dr. Dyer’s blog. The community understands and even accepts the liar and the untrustworthy so long as they are consistently so. It is the fluctuation that they seemingly cannot accept. Consistency is easier to cope with or to accept. Then one can count on that person. MJ cannot make that judgment; he cannot tell when he is taken advantage of. He feels hurt when being called names or being left out. He cannot, however, manage one of the saving graces of life-to see and understand that which must be seen and understood. When advantage is out there to take, there are those who will snatch it up and use it for their own gain. He has met people like this before, but his protective shields have been there to step in and make decisions. Now we won’t be there. Will he eventually learn it which like all learning of this type comes with hard lessons and tears? Even if the hard lessons present themselves, how do we know that he will learn the appropriate lessons? He is not even capable of that complicated mental and emotional capacity of self analysis when combined with others who manipulate and use unfairly.